pixie nymph

as you know, i developed some rashes lately. i found out that it’s because of my shower habit, i am not supposed to stay too long under the hot shower because it tends to dry and unmoisturized my skin, not that i’m using harsh bath soaps or lotions in fact, i have been using products prescribed by my derma back home. anyways, my man has always been with me through this trying times (for my skin hehehe), he makes sure he puts the cream himself on my body after i shower. what truly amazes me, is when he wakes in the middle of the night and lift my shirt up and put cream with his bare hands on my rashes when i myself, don’t even want to touch it! he does this almost very night now. i know everything happens for a reason and maybe the reason for my rashes is for me to know he is more than i ever prayed for…thank God!

i’ll be very honest, i have been crying lately not because i’m unhappy here or gene isn’t the nicest man in the world anymore but only because my heart longs for my family…the dearest people in my life!my source of strength and the greatest gift God has given me. It is so hard to be away from the people you love most in your life not that I’m not used to it til now(as I lived in Manila for 3 years already prior to coming out here)but I just feel so damn far from them. I try to call them almost everyday or talk to them on-line, it’s just so different!In Manila, going home isn’t that hard to do, as i could always pack my bags anytime and take an hour and a half flight home. What I miss most, is talking to my mom and sister til early hours in the morning, we practically talk about anything and everything!Not to mention our out-of-town trips and the shopping that the entire family love to do! I know i have to wait for that day I get to be to spend time with them again and be strong, it’s just that I’m dying inside…